09/09/25
the lunar eclipse! it completely surprised me, i haven't heard or seen anything about it. just noticed a crescent out the window when i was sure we're in the full moon week. it was enchanting. the edges seemed so bright! while the light also seemed to fall at a strange angle... a fan of light instead of a circle. the clouds were what i call "witchy". wispy and only partially obscuring the sights, mostly just veiling the sky with their greein-ish, blue-ish, and brown-ish hues. i was so enchanted i just stared at it for twenty minutes, wondering about the magic of life and that i seem to have lost it this year. all this inspired a tarot reading on how to regain it.
i used my newest handmade deck which i'm calling the black veil tarot. attaching a very abridged version of the reading below, in case anyone wants to try the spread:
1. where can i find that magical/enchanted feeling externally? (actions in the world) 4 of swords
2. where can i find it internally? (internal actions, mindframe) queen of wands
3. how can i regain my sense of being guided? knight of wands
feel into what's thrilling and charged. even if there's a strong negative feeling, that's valuable information.
4. what's my next step? (which i'd know if i were in tune with that guidance) magician
self explanatory - do magic for more magic.
as i was writing this one out on the day of the reading i got struck with a very intense... "vision". idea. a scene playing out, that i couldn't shake to focus on what i was trying to write. the lady thrusting me into a powerful, freezing, underground stream, feeling it rush through and around me. emerging dripping with that eerie witch moonlight. walking through a pine wood with [familiar], twigs snapping.
5. a message from the lady of the threshold. knight of pentacles
i don't need anything new, i need to return to the familiar, practice old skills that have gone by the wayside.
i admit that the above is "back-filled" and neatened up after i made my way through the initial figuring out. but it's clear i need to spend more regular time in the vaults, get the imagination going. there has been too much of mind-emptying. i'll enrich the shit out of that inner world.
PS. the day after i did go on my first little flight and met some familiar faces. later in the night i dreamt of the eclipse again - in the dream world it was a three day affair. but i don't know if i'll have a part three of my own moon story this time around.