13/09/25
i had my first no internet sunday last week and i have to say it was great. so much so, i'm considering doing multiple days a week, or at least half-days? i caught up on many home tasks and neglected chores. i read a lot, almost the entire time i wasn't jobbing. did spend an hour on a hard sudoku (joint effort with partner). and got a big start on a tarot project (adding silver elements to the shadowplay tarot, now finished). there was the eclipse and the reflection and tarot reading about it. how much of that was impacted by the day of just being with myself without interference?
the monday after was the worst - i could observe in real time how "sticky" the laptop is. as long as it's open, there's this unfulfilled promise for entertainment, engagement, inspiration. clicking through tumblr, mastodon, discord - in case something good pops up. i'm not sure if a half-day will work, it might make me restless and anticipatory, just trying to get to the evening for that (usually) empty "promise". when it's closed and figuratively off the table that's somehow more weighty and final. removes the temptations and longings.
maybe "opening" the laptop would work if it's for a specific purpose - not just "to check on things". maybe to intentionally socialize. to write up some thoughts. to pull up some mandolin tabs on screen. without opening the browser? hmm... i'll try that next week. today continues as normal and tomorrow is another no-internet sunday.