i am stuck in the eight of wands

02/10/24

i was randomly laying out cards and realized it's a relevant reading for myself. keeping it a little vague for the internet but here it is, an example of this spread:

my universal spread

the image shows seven cards from the tarot of the cat people. in order from left to right: eight of wands, the empress, the wheel of fortune, the queen of cups, justice, five of pentacles, strength

stats: majority of triumphs, things feel heavy and important. out of the minors i'm only missing swords - not much room or energy for thinking over the important things, just waiting/riding it out. the queen is the only court and borrowing a cartomancy meaning i'm ascribing her to my mom - definitely an "asset" in this situation and i'm glad she's taking care of the real things so that i can only do the minimum that's only dependent on me and can't be delegated.

following the tirage en sept card counting: i have a lot of stuff to juggle, particularly around documents and getting legal things right, but also creativity, maintaining the home/taking care of our well-being, and taking any surprises in stride, trying to keep myself level. i am in need of some serious emotional nourishing.

triads:

• recently i've had this particular wheel of fortune refer to seasonal changes and their effects on me. so i'm taking the first triad as a reminder to chill with the "art challenge" and only turn to art when i need it for myself, like to process things or express myself. and if i happen to accidentally complete a challenge, cool.
• the last triad seems to be about the vaccine - "formalities" around health and emerging stronger. an explanation of my crumminess. sleep is hard with "covid arm", and possibly there are other effects that are harder to pinpoint.
• middle triad confirms changeability of mood is to be expected right about now.

pairs:

• i know i can handle this fast pace - it's only a few days/a week at most. just need to be patient with myself and the process
• really take care of the physical basics. sleep isn't working but i could be going out more
• i like justice as "adjustment" here, little motions and feeling out where things are going to respond accordingly. another confirmation of "this investigation is good, help yourself when you need to"

positions: i'm coming from a place of urgency and recognize it's not where i thrive. i can't force creativity now. luckily the next steps aren't really my decision - they depend on how the situation progresses but are generally pretty straightforward. i'm showing myself plenty of love, and to address potential "external" turmoils, i have knowledgeable people around me for any legal/official support should i need them (i won't). i won't feel better emotionally until my physical state improves, and i can try to speed it up with some light exercise (and hey, maybe more tired = better sleep, too). and i need to keep noticing the opportunities to be patient with myself/the circumstances. good thing to practice.

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